I wish you'd of been able to hold on until Ebony came to me, then stories of Ebony may of helped you

It does feel at times like I *have* to save others, cause it's happened in the past where I got blamed for not "saving" another living being (twice in fact, there was Beauty girl cat irl and the rescue charity thought I let her go too soon when it was on the vets advice) and there was a online friend (not fresh hell but another member of the same forum I met fresh hell on) who kept messaging me wanting me to help and would explode at me if I wasnt online all the time, he thougth I had to be online all the time just in case he needed help, I get it cause real life professionals were doing nothing to help him, but I ended up having to block him simply cause if I tried any more to help him I wouldn't of been able to "save" myself, I had to try and "save" myself and I couldn't do that with him taking all my energy

I probably failed him as well like I failed fresh hell