Thanks, I really, really hope so. I would not have believed this was even possible, let alone awesome for years. I know how hard it can be, especially when one has those glimmers of the past -- like, oh, it will be good now, or it will get better. It doesn't. I say that with 9 years of wishing and wanting to believe that(!)

I had a LONG time of knowing it wasn't good for me, that it was emotional abuse (with narcissism to boot), but not knowing how to get off the train. Because despite it all, I still loved him. Or at least cared a great deal. I also hesitated because I really don't have any friends, so support was pretty much just my T (and I'd say here, but I was so ashamed I couldn't talk about it).

To anyone who is in a similar situation -- let me assure you-- it is SOOOO much better out!!!!!