Wasn’t going to post but I have to be actively hammering distractions.

My T was sick today so not seeing him. Next appt is in 2 weeks so I will only see him once in November and once in December. He seldom ever get a cancellation, but on the rare occasion he will call me.

I’m so distraught and wanting to check myself out but I can not do that to my family.

I might have to breakdown and call the crisis line.

This so sucks more than I can put into words.

I. Just. Can’t. Take. Much. More.