My T sees progress. My friends see progress. My family sees progress. Objectively, I see progress.

But I don't feel it. My T advised me to stay on my meds. I fail to see what my antidepressant is doing considering I'm still very much depressed. The abilify is just as ****ing useless except for one fact I can't ignore: I haven't fallen into delusional thought patterns since I've been on it. So, I'm sort of worried about stopping that one. My T said this is a routine thing for me, to quit meds for whatever the reason and try it out without them. Every time I end up back on them. So now I'm debating.