I've discovered that the most important thing in keeping me stable is to completely disavow anything that alters my mental state - drinking alcohol, smoking pot, smoking cigarettes, and tightly controlling drinking coffee or anything with caffeine in it; which I'll admit pissed me off for a long time, and would just about send me into bouts of rage just at the mere thought of giving up all these "vices"... but ultimately as a father and a husband I have to be stable for my family and my future... you've gotta find your reasons to control your habits, or your habits will control you. Sometimes that takes a lot of digging into your inner core, and suffering at the hands of your vices before you finally find your reasons.
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