I had a pdoc appointment today. I wrote a decent size note I just planned to read from. And I did. It looked like she was listening. I explained how my seroquel was working well because I only heard voices on and off and they weren’t the scary ones or voices tellling me to do things. Also told her that the entire month I only had visual hallucinations 2 times. Then explained my moods and anxiety. It wasn’t even that long.

She then asked me in numerous ways if: I was still hearing things, seeing things, of seroquel was helping, my sleep, if I was still depressed.

I can understand if she needs to ask for the appointments sake but it’s like the answers I gave her TWICE didn’t register. I was at 600mg seroquel and told her I didn’t want any higher because I wouldn’t be able to function. I also said my antidepressant wasn’t working and I think it was making me suicidal.

She UPPED my seroquel to 800mg and didn’t change anything else! I at least wanted to be off the antidepressant. I have desperately wanted and needed something new for my anxiety for MONTHS. I understand we can only change one thing at a time but I’m done messing with seroquel. Some people hear things on and off no matter what and that’s me.

I’m only taking 400mg seroquel, not 800mg. I’m not taking the antidepressant, it made me suicidal according me my actions and thoughts and the label on it. I’m not taking my anti anxiety because it does NOTHING. I don’t even have withdrawals. I’ll take my lithium.

My next appointment is in a month. But I don’t know what to tell her. She had been great so far. Only been seeing her a short time. But it seems like she wasn’t listening. Help please. It crushed my mood today and I slept until 5pm and yelled and then ignored everyone who was trying to help but I just feel angry