"There's as many ways to God as there are people in this world."

I don't know how to tell you what you should do to get there. I don't think anyone can - and like the Dread Pirate Robert says in 'The Princess Bride' - "Life is pain. And anyone who tells you differently is trying to sell you something."

I'm still on the long journey to connect with the Creator - coming from an unshakable Atheism - it was only when I started to looking for the answers to the why's did I start to doubt everything that I was certain of... some people don't ever leave it, and that's cool too - no judgement. For myself, I had to walk through hell, and keep walking before I finally heard the whisper in my heart... but everyone's different.