I am very lonely, I live with my mom, I have no boyfriend, not many friends. Regularly, I get panic attacks especially in the evening... when I feel all the void around me... I cant sleep, I am anxious and sad. And this void around me feels like if I was a bum in the street.. you know lost and homeless. I feel like human trash. How can I gain a little bit more security? How can I ground myself? How can I make this feeling of being trash disappear?