So things have been going pretty smoothly the last couple of months or so. But this week I am struggling.

My head is all over the place. My mood is all over the place. And I feel like I am just right on the edge of tipping into crisis.

I just feel like I am slowly but surely losing it. Losing the motivation that I’ve had to keep going. And all the self destructive things I used to turn to are becoming more and more appealing.

Those suicidal thoughts and urges are creeping back in, trying to take hold once more.

I’m trying to do the right things, I just don’t know if it’s enough to stop me going into crisis. I just wish this would stop happening. I need this to stop.