This morning was a fight with the voices. The pdoc's office called and said I can't take lithium yet because my creatinine was high (barely). I'm wondering if it's because I did heavy exercise before the test. I have to get blood work done again. If I can't take lithium then I don't know what I'll do. What I'm taking now is clearly not effective anymore. Work continues to get more stressful and I can't cope. I shut myself in my office and struggle behind closed doors. My boyfriend just got upset and left without me because I never want to do anything. I don't have any energy or desire to. So now I'm just sitting here crying. I need help but I don't see the psychologist until the end of the month.