I had therapy yesterday and I was still pretty low from Monday, but not dangerously low.

It was a scary session because my T asked why we're continuing when nothing is changing. I was sure he was going to fire me right then and there. But he didn't. But I'm still afraid he will soon.

For now I am hanging on. I am depressed and frustrated and not sure I want to hang on, but I'm also not sure that dying is the best option, right now.

So here I sit...hanging on.