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Old Nov 03, 2018, 01:17 PM
LostItLiz84 LostItLiz84 is offline
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Location: Colorado
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I hate to just drop into the forum as a new person and immediately throw out a question....but here I am.

I値l try to keep this from being long winded. Short background, I知 34 living with bipolar 1, on meds for 8 years (mostly) and up until last April in therapy. I wouldn稚 call my moods stable but they致e certainly been less severe. A few hypo episodes that were manageable.

Until this week. I知 having a mixed episode with suicidal ideation and last night in desperation came up with a plan. It scared me. Enough that I broke my number one rule and told my best friend. She immediately came over and sat with me, made me tell her what was going on and set up a safety plan. Great, right?

Except now she knows and her husband knows. And I知 struggling with how to deal with the continuing mixed episode, as well as the guilt and shame of dragging her out of bed to dump my **** on her. My question is how do I stop myself from completely withdrawing because I知 afraid and ashamed that they know?
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