hi. welcome to the forums.

im glad you have a -real- friend. im also 34, and ive found that now...i have a couple real friends, no more fake friends, and im much, much happier this way than i ever was before. true story.

try not to be too hard on yourself. people need people, preferably people who actually care about them, especially during times of stress and such.

breakthrough episodes can be a pain...what to do? I hope things simmer down in your world.