My dr asked me yesterday if I realized how deeply depressed I am. I AM in denial. I hate this. I have so many good things going on yet I let the bad weigh me down. Why? Why does the good not outweigh the bad? We can never have it all. I don't even want it all. I don't know what my problem is and it's making me mad. It's like a gross poison I can't get out of me. I just want to be normal again.