Yes depakote, lithium and wellbutrin are what im supposed to be on. I just seen my pdoc so another 3 months before im supposed to see him. I see my therapist in a week and a half. They dont have the same views on the meds though and neither does my husband or myself so it makes my head spin trying to understand whats right. All I know is I hate all of this.

Also I have been drinking for a few weeks again, Im not sure if that is factoring into my decision making or what it has to do with anything really but maybe something.

And I feel really alone. Do you ever feel like you NEED company. Its really late here so its just me and alcohol but i wish there were people so badly I feel like going out but there is nowhere to go. I dont have friends and my husband is sleeping. At least i have this board, I feel bad for using it like this because Im not consistent but it I feel like I need it sometimes