They are busy and dont have time to see people more than that. He will see me if i call and really need it thoigh. My therapist seems to think there is more hormone issues even though the ups and downs arent in a pattern and thinks I should try increasing my antidepressant when im down. But I cant anyways because they only give me a week at a time since my last suicide attempt.

My husband goes back and forth between saying I wasnt that bad before meds and thinking i should stay on them. His issue is more with my drinking I guess.

I maybe would just rather give up. I dont even know anymore, I think I am not going to be any good to tslk to now. Thanks anyways sorry for wasting your time