I haven't read all the posts here, I have many issues with my own family. I find myself talking about it to people, and they just don't understand. It's my story I'll share, but I was abused, ignored and neglected. It did do a lot of damage. It's hard to forgive, if I really did forgive. I think I did. But I just don't forget. It's like a vicious cycle for me, to bring up my past, to some friend that I trust. Everyone's experience is so different. It really does hurt when no one identifies with us. Depression is an awful thing to live with. I'm glad you are opening up, and do this at your own pace Fuzzy. We will try to help you.