Thanks everyone a year ago you all convinced me to talk to a Doctor (and tell the truth because I lie to them a lot) while I was manic and I am fairly certain that I would be dead without you all because I was so untrusting of everyone else at that point.

I dont know if I can take the meds now. Im really unsure but I will at least keep thinking about it since it sounds like everyone agrees its probably not the best idea. It almost feels like it would be impossible to put those things in my mouth but I only slept 3 hours last night and dont feel tired at all so thats not a great start.