wow let me start by saying i am sorry that i have been posting so much.
I was on here a little earlier, actually it feels like a few hours ago but it has actually only been 30 mins or so. When i first got on here this morning i was depressed i was reading and replying and posting. i received a pm from someone requesting my advice. i slowly started to feel good and important and at the end of my reply i felt so great like i have just taken..... well.... i have never tried drugs so i couldn't tell you a name of one, but something that would make you feel like you are on top of the world, and all your worries have gone away. I feel beautiful (this is really hard for me to say, but really i do) not just outside but inside as well.)Did my self esteem just pop up all of a sudden after being hidden for SO LONG? I actually am feeling like i don't need medication because i feel so great, but i know i do because just this morning i was depressed. Anyway, i feel like i have so much energy and i can't wait for my husband to get home to tell him all of this. i have been off my meds for a year, but i go on Tuesday to see a new psychiatrist. i have argued with all the doctors in the past and have always told them that i do not have mania. my question is is this mania, or am i just happy all of a sudden? And should i tell the new psychiatrist about this? i don't know. i am a little confused but it is ok that i am confused, when usually i would be depressed when i feel confused, wow sorry i could go on, but will stop for now.