Here’s my take on your situation take it with a grain of salt:

You need to go to the dr and get your hormones check to rule that. You need to sit down and really look at your past, your hospitalizations, your meds and your alcohol use.

How are you going to deal with your mood swings?
How you are going to prevent hospitalization?
Do you trust your therapist with your life? (enough to listen when you need hospitalization)
Do you trust your psychiatrist with your life?
If you don’t trust your T and pdoc that much then you need to find a new treatment team.

Do you believe in kindling?
What symptoms do you want to control?
What side effects are you not willing to handle?

Write all these answers down and talk to your therapist about it.



If your husband is worried about your alcohol use there are drugs that help that. You have to make sure you’re not self medication. Playing with just an antidepressant can cause mixed episode (depression and mania at the same time.) You’ve been to the hospital several times. It’s likely you’ll end up there again. If you can’t talk honestly with your Dr. write it down or find another dr. Often once diagnosed things seem worse because your looking for it.