I haven’t been able to read all the responses my heads too noisy but I’ll throw this out there

Anyone can stop meds for a day or a week etc and feel “ good” because all meds have a half life which means it all has to be processed out of your body.... then the not so much fun can start.

Remember how it took time to actually start working? Well your brain will have to adjust without the Med and that can be pure hell. Took my brain almost 2 months to get lithium out of my life , I’m still left with a fine motor skill tremor , small but it’s there.

Why not try a different Med if these aren’t working ??!

I always want to toss my meds but last time I actually scared myself so I’ll stay on my current cocktail, might change later , but my family deserves me to be as stable as possible and I damn sure owe it to myself.

Good luck