I can tell you the first year of marriage is the easiest and the hardest. First you need to take cAre of you because your life has been off the tracks and I am And sure you don't want to go back to that.

You need to get him to talk to you about this. My bet is he will not be willing to do counseling. If you could it might be very beneficial for you to therapy to get it clear in your
in your mind the finer points of the discussion.