yup! my ex-T was not competent or trained enough to fully deal with my complex trauama and DID. i started medicating myself regularly with alcohol and self-harming to cope with the dysregulation and fallout from being triggered in my sessions. this eventually lead to increased depression, hopelessness, and suicidal ideation. if i hadn't found other interventions to help with regulating my emotions and to address the truama, i'm pretty certain i would not be here today to respond to your post.