Hello wonderful people,

this should be quick. As you may have read I was discharged from IP last Thursday. I am having maintenance ECT starting this Thursday. My mood has really picked up (most of the time, except when it dives into a hellish mixed state) and I am positive, motivated and very chatty. All sounds good on the surface but every day my thoughts get more and more out of control in speed, content and general experience. I feel like I am living all my life in one moment. It is wild. My brain absorbs everything my senses take in, process it and take it as far as I can. This is so hard to explain.

I am taking Lorazepam and Seroquel as prescribed and am seeing my T and pdoc on Wednesday. ECT Thursday. I am just wondering if anyone else has had their brain go on fire like this. Nothing seems real, yet everything seems more real than real. This goes beyond the hypomania I am used to. There is also a dark undercurrent that flows in and out of me. What is happening to me???