My last 2 sessions seemed to be reasonably good ones, but the first left me with spiraling thoughts of negative self beliefs (not something I usually struggle with) then the following week I felt sure I’d resolve it. But the EMDR memory I was working on, though logically not my fault as I was a tiny child, kind of reaffirmed all my fears of being a terrible person. I was left with this awful dooming feeling I can’t shake. I feel like I’m to blame for all of what happened and the issues I have now. I want to bring it up in therapy but I don’t want a blind supportive/feel good response from T. I won’t believe words of encouragement or support. I don’t know how to get myself out of it and I’m nervous if she says ‘nice’ things, I’ll think these thoughts even more.

I want to think of a way I can approach her with this wouldn’t sounding all “woe is me”. I HATE pity, drama or attention. I’m really considering that this whole therapy thing just isn’t for me!