I think I've been fortunate. I've never not felt comfortable with a T...with my current T, we were friends for a few years before we switched to therapist/client, then I left him for about nine years, and went back a year ago. I feel like I can tell him anything, just not always to his face. Sometimes it takes a text or an email.

Have you considered talking with your T about your feelings? There is significant research that supports the outcome of therapy being based on the client/therapist relationship. It's worth bringing up.