No I haven't thought of that. I like her it's just she is just working on things that make me feel gross inside. I dont look at her often. Mainly I just stare at a picture on the wall and think about how much I dont want to be talking about that. Then last session when we were talking and I was looking at her I dissociated and looked like an idiot. I still have no memory of what we were talking about when I dissociated. It's not her its me. She does look at me alot and that bothers me but its normal. It's not her its me.