Don't call my feelings "transference"...
So you think they are not real? I know, therapy is a lie, you don't care about me, you hate me and so on. This is very painful. Nevermind.

But my feelings are real. Okay? I love you. Do you even know how painful it is when someone you love hates you? You don't care. I know. It's my problem. What am I trying to say? Idk. I'm in pain. I feel hopeless.

I hate myself for being so miserable and disgusting. I'm sick of myself. I have no one to talk to. I want to stop existing