I found a new trigger this morning while I was dropping off my ballot: a large conglomeration of cops/police cars with lights running. They had blocked off one lane of the road for the ballot drop-off (my state does vote by mail, but you can also drop-off on election day) with motorcycles and cars and there were a bunch of cops standing around. Took me right back to that damn night. Then this Black Sabbath song came on.

And now I just feel buried under this weight and I'm crying at my desk and I want to call my therapist.