Last night was one of those long nights where I question if my stability has come to an end. Though I took my meds as usual could not sleep.......and not sleeping is always the precursor. Takes more than just one night but it always alarms me. My unstablized self is so bad and I've spent so much time in hospitals, an experience I don't care to repeat especially here, where I've heard terrible things about the psych wards. Ah.......it magnifies in the dark. I finally did get some sleep and dreamed I was 5 and was trained to blow up the school. I refused and there were repercussions for me bucking the system, but in the end it all worked out and they were able to see they didn't need to blow things up to get results.

Still nervous about what tonight will bring. Think the whole ordeal is nervousness over the election. Healthcare is primary as is ability for those on disability to live. Do vote today.