How honest may we be? ... and mixed diagnoses with me... I don't seem to fit in any checkin thread, but I'll give this a try (maybe again?).

If I am honest the last week or two I have been extremely "hard up" so to speak... to the point that I am back thinking on a fantasy or.. ugh nvrmd. caught myself after about a half week I read on Obsessive Love Disorder, erotomania, and attachment disorder which I understand may not for bipolar but I am beginning to wonder if this for me is a sign of a cycle due to it is very reoccurring in life...
Like anything it's not 100% me but the beliefs that are so strongly felt and the fighting to find reasonable facts... it's hard to explain...
I questioned to myself "why do I do this to myself " and reminded myself, its not that I do this to me.. it's how I am