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Originally Posted by paintedturtle
I understand this completely. I am married to an amazing man (14 years on December 23rd) and he is so loving and supportive that I don't understand it. I was raised in a very abusive and unsupportive family and I still have scars that i haven't dealt with, so I react to him in, what I consider, inappropriate ways. I feel so guilty and I have been so sick (physically) heart surgery, bleeding ulcer, type  II diabetes and the burden of running the household has fallen on him completely. Iknowhe's tired and he never says a word or complains, and then I still react to him like he has the potential to be an abuser. I'm scared all the time and I have panic attacks daily that he feels helpless to help releive. I've been off my meds since the surgery so I rarely sleep and my moods are all over the place. I'm trying to get back on meds,but they literaly have to have a committee meeting to determine what mes will e safe for me. I'm waiting for a call back and I'm losing patience. Sorry this is so long. I seem to be really wordy lately. - Mary / PaintedTurtle |
No worry on the wordiness - we seem to be a match for that!
But seriously, your reply really pained me to hear. I feel so very concerned for you and your own struggle but am also cheering you and your husband on. I am so happy to learn that for all your physical and emotional struggles you are not alone in battling them. I think this is a big 'win'. So many do not have our luck in finding compassion and encouragement. I hold your hand up high in a big 'yay'.
Now, if only we can find a way to take the emotional burden off of our partners' backs. I have suggested a support group for friends and family supporting those with mood disorders. It could at least be a start. It has been suggested I take him along to a session with my T and/or pdoc. I am not ready to jump on board with that though.