Thanks for asking. I’m really not sure. Sometimes I think I’m improving but looking back when able to think clearly(not a strength right now) I see symptoms all over the charts. The last two mornings I have woken very early very depressed and agitated. Yesterday I shot up and had an extremely productive day with my Mum who rarely leaves me side. I talked her ear off and cranked up the music loud in the car. My mind was spiraling out of control. It was very uncomfortable. I felt the same sensation of the feeling of experiencing everything in the universe at once but this time I had to hide it from my Mum. Upon returning to my parents house later that day I took Seroquel at my Mums constant urging. This calmed me down and even sent me into a restless nap.

Later I had two beers. I think this was a mistake but I craved them. Although I went to bed early last night I only slept 4-5 hours. Again woke very depressed and agitated. Today I see my T and pdoc so hopefully I will be able to communicate successfully my experiences and get some advice. Tomorrow is ECT so I guess that will help. I’m flying and I’m drowning. Managing to stay safe. Just having trouble keeping my feet on the ground.