I'm actually feeling okaaaaaaaaay. I'm officially half way through the syllabus for surgery and I'm reviewing stomatology again as I've already finished that. With pharmacology i'm on topic 11/50 and would obviously need to go over everything again, but here's the funny thing I'm not feeling stressed or panicking about exams. Maybe I need emphasis on the word yet. xD

I'm going to the cinema with Jo today to watch the new nutcracker movie. But gosh do I miss my youngest sister and I'd rather go with her as awful as that makes me sound. She's MY person- you'd get that if you watched grey's anatomy. She literally feels like my baby because I've always been a second mother to her, but I'm not there for her like I used to be and I haven't been since I started school.

I previously decided that I wouldn't go to the house this year for Christmas, but I checked fights today. They're not as crazily priced as they previously were. I could be there for 10 days if I leave on the 21st but return on the 31st. Or maybe i could do 4 days less so 6 days in total if I leave on the 24th. I don't have dates for surgery but it might still be around the 15th so I'd still have time to prep then just pharma at the end which is the biggest exam.

I know it's not a good environment for me to be around, but it's not so easy to be an island. Would you call this self sabotaging- but hey I just don't like the idea of being alone at Christmas.

I'm going to email you the same thing I posted here many moons ago.