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Old Mar 03, 2008, 02:22 AM
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(((((recluse)))))

My dear friend and someone I trust. Thank you for your support and your prayers. I am lost somewhere recluse in all this. It is dark and I am falling. Depression has a grip right now on me as I fight for its release. I am not alone here, someone is hurting too.

I do not know right now how to explain what is happening. I just know it is real and it dark and scary. I know you are there and will not let me fall inside to lose myself. I feel sometimes that maybe I deserve this for some reason. But then I ask myself--why?? I was just a little girl and I did not know how to ask for this.

I am trying to hang on and knowing you are there means so much. I am trying to remember God is there, but sometimes I ask is He? For so long it felt as though He was no where to be found. Maybe in my being alive is where He was.

Thank you again. Know that I love you and I am reaching back and holding on with all I have right now. I am scared but still trying. Thank you for being there. Thank you for caring. I love you.



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