Oh, I love the hypo too but love it too much. If the not sleeping or little sleep without missing it goes on for me longer than a few days, I go fully manic, and God knows what I might start thinking is a great idea, like throwing out all my pills, spending money on any crap I find, interrupting people (causing people I love to get angry with me), one time it went in to hypergraphia, but extreme hypergraphia, as in I could not stop it at all. I had zillions of post-its, papers, notes afterwards. H had to talk long and hard with the pdoc to keep me out of the hospital on that one; she really, really wanted me there, and it was not a suggestion as she had done a couple times in the past.

I wish I could just get hypomanic and float along there. I feel like H likes me best hypomanic (though he does not know or recognize hypomania when he sees it). I'm productive, get things done, stay focused, am motivated, want to do more or try new things (not extreme new things, like learning to knit, things like that). I am much more social and don't isolate myself so much.

It's taken me awhile to learn my lesson, but even though I hate ending it, I put in a call to the pdoc once I recognize I am hypo because of the consequences of what will happen if I don't.