A lot of things have happened in the past few months for me. I decided to reconnect with a forbidden side of my family, my biological father's side. I found my long lost cousin and my aunt. The reason I say they were forbidden is because 18 years ago my mother was involved in a domestic abuse case that cost us nearly both our lives. I suffered chemical poisoning burn injuries, and she too suffered differing injuries from her case, but both were connected to my father. He ended up getting 20 years to life in prison. My grandparents were also drug users (my father's parents), and so was a majority of the rest of the family, my cousin however was not. My mother wanted nothing to do with them as she saw them as a danger and toxic people, so she cut them completely out of my life moving us to several different states over the span of 18 years of my life.

I grew up resenting how I was taken away from my family, they were blood to me. Growing up, my mother grew up to be very abusive emotionally, physically, and even psychologically and she has even still continued to get away with it to this day not owning up to anything that she's done. I understand that she too has trauma and her own set of issues, but that does not mean you single out your only daughter, bully her, and blame/scapegoat her for all your issues (I pointing that out at her). She always grew up loving her son and favoring him more than me.

I decided to get back in contact with my cousin, whom I haven't seen for over 18 years. She was in tears and told me she has waited for this day for me to reach out. When I was excited and told my mother, she legit flipped her ****. She started barraging me with texts saying that I endangered us, and that what I did was selfish. My mother has always guilt tripped me for anything I wanted to do for myself. All I wanted to do was reconnect with my long lost family. I wanted to find out my heritage, the story behind everything that happened and what my family was like. How can you say that what I'm doing is selfish when I'm a grown *** adult who can make her own decisions? I told my mother to back off, and that I was tired of her abusive language towards me. My mother since has disowned me. It's been almost a month and a half now.

I have decided to cut off contact from both parents, my adoptive father and my mother. My adoptive father a narcissistic alcoholic. My mother, I can tell is very controlling, manipulative, and has explosive anger an has selfish tendencies.

I've learned a bit about my cousin. I love her so much. She gives me love (my boyfriend too) unlike how I was treated by my parents. I have missed this my entire life, and now I get to experience pure unconditional love! Not screaming, fighting, blaming, playing the martyr, name calling like my mother did to me. For the first time I can be happy that I still have family out there who loves me. I love them too. My cousin is a loving mother with 5 kids and she's spiritual, we go through the same things. She's emotional, loving, sensitive, kind, and caring. I can connect with her on every level. Her mother, my aunt, swore off on drugs, and is now into metaphysics. Both of them are cut off from the rest of the rest of the bad side of my biological father's family.

Now this is where I found out some interesting things that had my mind blown. Things that make me wonder: Is this generational? Is it in my blood?

I was told that my uncle, my aunt's older brother worked for Area 51. He also worked along side Extraterrestrial beings at Nellis Air-force base. My aunt, has also had some UFO/Government linked encounters. She remembers driving with some friends and a saucer like ship approached them. It would zip off disappear then come back. She said that was a memorable experience. Another was this one where she said she was with her boyfriend. Her boyfriend took her to this guarded airport facility in California. They let her in, and she said she's seen some books that has files of military officials working with these intelligent beings. I'm going to have to ask her what the airport was called, because she told me to research it when I get a chance.

Ever since I was younger I've always wanted to meet these godly beings. We are not alone, and they also do live among us.