So Someone seen
Me taking paracetamol
In the staff room.
I was training
With the British
Olympic Team! How
On earth would
I get past the doping
Screening if I were
On medication that
Altered brain chemistry?
Medication that improves
Your physical functioning,
Would without a doubt
Be classified as cheating.
Always flying? I guess
That was a taste
Of my own alternate medicine.
Self destructive behaviour
In teenagers is not
Really that uncommon.
So where does growing
Pains end and the
Illness begins is difficult
To others even
Those in mental health.
From knowing in your
Head to then getting
It on paper and then
To somehow get that
Right moment for
The words to form on
Your tongue and leave
Your lips, takes years.
Years of healing.
Years of soul searching.
Years of sweat and tears.
And luck to have
Survived in the first place.