I know from reading the struggles you have had with mc and current t. Was there similar struggles with the female T you had aswell? I don't remember reading so many ups and downs with this T and you seemed to be making good progress with her so I was just wondering would trying to have a session or two with her again would be an option for you? I'm not sure how that works etc, but I'm assuming the door would be open because wasn't you only meant to be leaving her temporarily just to see how things with with current T etc.