The pain of emptiness is what is most hard for me. I'm nearly 50 and have never felt more lost or confused. I think and hope that it's a very good thing that you're married, Cyrano; I read/heard somewhere that having a home & relationship is empirically healthier, especially for men. Especially for depression.

I too am very sad today. I'm single and functionally homeless; and "high functioning". When you're "high functioning" people assume you can function just because you have degrees or have work or whatever. I've been unemployed so long now I fear I am losing or have even lost employability. The pressure from this friend who rescued me when I lost my apartment---the middle class values pressure, mostly expectatcions---is so demoralizing. I'm so ashamed.

I hope that you feel better soon, Cyrano.