HELLO PC,

Help would be so gigantically appreciated

About two years ago, my really good friend C moved away and my heart broke into a billion pieces, leaving behind an abyss of a void nobody has been able to fill since. We were close for years then boom, finished - but it wasn't the move which brought us to an end, it was borderline incomprehensible.

We stayed in touch over the phone which neither of us liked - then one day, I got a new phone, a new number and I lost his number too!!!! We don't have the same friends to communicate through (before moving, he didn't really have any - so any friends he has made since moving, I don't know). At that time, neither of us were on social media (he'd never even had a facebook).

There is seemingly NO possible way for us to reconnect! I thought I'd be okay and I've met many people since but nobody like him. I just wanna know he's alright, find out how he's been - he never got an explanation from me so it's like I've ghosted him. Can anyone understand how frustrated I'm feeling? It's unbelievable how there are SO many inconveniences trying to reconnect with someone I was once so close to.

It's 2018, it's so hard to accept it's over just like that with no goodbye after everything. I feel even worse knowing he might be thinking I deliberately ended our friendship, so much so I feel sick

Any advice ? Can anyone understand ? Any solutions ? Thank you SO much if you made it this far through my post