I am glad you are treated with the kindness and respect you deserve. I hope you can find other ways of releasing the feelings. I know, easier said then done. I am sad when I see my scars and know that pain I was in emotionally. When I read your post about the cuts I was sad. it's a visual of emotional pain and suffering. I have somehow managed to go since May with out cutting and I think I have also not done any head banging as well in that long. Good luck. thanks for being so open and honest.