I´m writing this in the moment I´m ghosting my therapist. I cry so I can hardly breathe. After an abrupt termination my therapist offered me some phone calls but because she caused the termination and I didn´t get any proper termination sessions I decided to ghost her.


Knowing that she now sits in her office waiting for me to call, we had a set date and time, is totally heartbreaking and I can´t take it in. It´s worse than a funeral and it´s like the "death" of our relationship. It´s completely devastating.


I didn´t want to call as she can´t help me in what I go through, a profound grief and it would only add to my sorrow to talk to her knowing she can´t be there for me anymore. A part in this was also to make her wonder why I didn´t call but I think she partly expected I wouldn´t.

She didn´t try or doesn´t seem to try to reach me but I expected that as she told me she doesn´t call clients who don´t show for session. Even if we had a scheduled phone session I assume she acts the same way.


It´s now so quiet, so empty. The grief is beyond everything.