It definitely sounds like you are in crisis mode. I agree with the previous posts. Can you move up your pdoc appt. or call and talk to your pdoc about getting on a different or higher dose AP? If not your pdoc, can you go to your general doctor? My PCP does not generally prescribe psych meds but she will in cases of waiting on appointments (especially as the waiting list to start up new with a good pdoc can be 6 months or longer). She prescribed me Xanax, Zoloft, something else too while between pdocs. Can your general physician consult with your pdoc to prescribe if you sign a release (if you cannot see or talk to your pdoc earlier)? Might be quicker that way, doctor to doctor? It might get you by.

IDK, my pdoc is very responsive, so I'm lucky. He even has a cell phone to call and leave a voicemail after hours or on the weekend or while he is on vacation, and I think he answers immediately should you call overnight. He will get back in 1 to 2 hours otherwise. He always calls back if I leave a message at the clinic that I need to speak with him during office hours.


If you are mixed, it's crazy. Sometimes, I'm even manic and depressed at the same time, if that makes any sense. Supposedly, I have been mixed since the end of March. IDK, I think mixed or depressive might be my natural state. I hate it though, racing thoughts, negative thoughts, sometimes self-harm thoughts, other bad thoughts, sometimes feeling good, wanting to do everything, skipping thing to thing, forgetting, irritable, feeling like a waste of space, needing to do this project, that one, then losing interest. Hearing things (mostly I keep hearing voices out of other noises, birds singing a lot), but not that bad on the psychotic end. But others who are mixed do have more psychosis; I think psychosis is more likely if you are mixed? Not 100% sure of that, you'd have to look it up. Sorry if you are mixed too. OMG, I am beyond sick of it.

I hope things will start getting better for you.