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Originally Posted by Chez3
I'm not sure, but I can kinda feel it. She's a sexual alter I think, and I'm not sure that Chez knows about her. I need to look into this more...
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It's always kind of freaky when you realize there's more insiders than what you originally thought.It's good that you are learning more about your system and are beginning to 'feel' them.Awareness is key with DID.
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Originally Posted by Amyjay
Yeah Chez3, its highly unlikely that your teachers would have noticed you dissociating during classroom discussions and documented it. Unless you had really extreme behavior teachers wouldn't notice a thing. Even drs documenting dissociation is an extreme longshot. DID is largely a hidden thing, most systems jobs are to cover up the abuse and keep it from being known about, otherwise everything would have been picked up a lot earlier, wouldn't it? So it's not very likely anyone would have known enough about your behavior to think, Oh, I think this is dissociation and this must be a sexual alter. So I doubt you'd find any useful information at all going down that route.
You might have more luck talking to your T about it or even asking other insiders if they know anything about this one you are beginning to become aware of.
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Good post here.And I agree with everything you said.I wanted to add though that I had 'extreme' behavior when I was in school but not one single authority figure ever thought wow,this child has alters or DID.I was just known as a troublemaker,a problem child,etc.
DID really is a hidden disorder and it would be pointless to talk to schools you went to.And probably pointless to talk to a medical doctor too because I highly doubt they would have known.The best person to talk to is a mental health professional and even trust your own judgement.I'm not saying a person is always right when it comes to their system or even whether they for sure have DID but I think we usually know ourselves best and we need to learn to trust our own intuition sometimes.Nothing about DID is by the book,nothing is set in stone,each individual is different.
I would be nice if teachers,doctors,etc. would be able to identify alters and dissociative disorders in childhood because then maybe people would be(or could have been) able to get the help needed while young instead of still suffering as adults.
I wish when one of my alters came out during a pap exam my doctor would have known and informed me so I could have got the help I needed so many years ago.I wish my teachers would have known when I was in kindergarten and got me the help I needed then.It just doesn't work that way,that's just not reality.Maybe in a perfect world,but it's just not how it is or how it works.