I know many of you here have done this. I'm curious how T responded when you did and did it change things between you at all?

In a round about way, I told mine. In a letter but didn't use the exact words, he just picked up on it. He's well aware I feel this way but I can't verbalize it to him no matter how much I try.

I know why I can't. There's something stopping me and that's fine I guess but I'm unsure why I still have the desire to say it out loud to him. I already was told he won't respond in any way if I do. I already know there's no actual need to say it. It wont mean anything to him but yet this desire keeps nagging me but I can't do it.

Any advice on how to get rid of the urge to say it? I know I never will so I'd like to stop thinking about it and wanting to.