I keep on telling myself that I’m better off without him, however I can’t stop thinking. I tried to find things to do but I can’t focus on anything. I don’t have a best friend because years ago one got with my ex husband. After that I haven’t gotten close to anyone. I spend most days here at home, spying him on fb, which I know I shouldn’t do because I really start feeling worse when I see he continued his life as nothing has happened and I’m still feeling like crap. And I done that everyday until it is time to go to bed. I look forward to sleeping because I know I won’t be thinking. Out of the 3 days since I haven’t talked to him today it’s the worst I felt. I saw a post that he went out yesterday and said that he wanted to distract himself. I guess I just kind of hoped that I was the cause of him needing to be distracted. It’s stupid, I know I’m harming myself by doing all of this. I feel lonely, my daughter is away in college and I’m all alone with basically no one I could talk to. I thought I could go shopping but I can’t even bring myself to. All I could hope for is that I start to feel better soon!!!