I would say, wow, why are obssessed with ny rotten, lonely past? You have so many friends now, you look better, feel better, have a wonderful life why oh why cannot you leave the past behind? I am a product of my past, not a prisoner of my past. I have vivid memories of being made fun of, called weird, going alone places, not fitting in....wow my life has done a 180 why cannot you feel I deserve this, yes, yes, I DO DESERVE this.......THIS me was in there somewhere yes it was buried but it was in there somewhere!!!!!!