I was living on my own and had to move back in with family due to my episodes severely interfering with my ability to manage typical household responsibilities. When I am cooking, it is so common for me to get distracted, I constantly misplace things, have problems carrying out certain tasks, get extremely stressed out with even small responsibilities. I am not in a good enough financial situation right now to afford a place, and I lack confidence in my ability to maintain a household. Not only does depression affect some of my abilities, but mania does as well, because I am so disorganized and all over the place in my mind.
I feel extremely insecure about these things. I am no longer in a relationship, but was shamed in the past for not being able to do everything the way a so-called "normal adult" should. I know that although I can work on some of these things, but it's hard. Somehow I hold on to my job, but home is a different story.
I have taken a break from dating, but whenever I imagine being in a relationship, I just think about how nobody would want to be with me, because of all of these things.
Just had to get that out there. I don't really know what to do about it??
I feel stuck, stagnant, and lack confidence.
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