Bizi, I feel for you, truly.
Addiction is tough to deal with. I can recall trying to quit smoking 20 years ago. It was very difficult to quit. It took me several attempts. I was getting to feel hopeless about ever being able to quit!
I have known you for awhile now. I have seen you go AF for a very long time! I hope you can do this again?
I love you and am pulling for you to experience victory over drinking.

WC